Why is high school the milestone? I know that some people have college reunions, but we really don't mythologize college reunions like we do high school reunions. How come we need to compare ourselves to everyone else we went to high school with? What do I mean by compare? Well, have you ever had a high school reunion by yourself? It's no fun, unless everyone else is there. Why are they there? To compare yourself to. "How far did I come?" you're thinking. "Did I do better than that person?" "Do I look better?" "Are they better?" "Are WE better?" See ... we compare ourselves.
Maybe I should try finding another milestone of adulthood to celebrate. How about the 20th anniversary of the time I lost my virginity? They'll only be two of us, but probably a better chance of having a good time (wink wink). How about the 20th anniversary of my first root canal? That's another 18 years from now - no telling what my tooth will look like. Aha! the 20th anniversary of the purchase of my first car. That really was the first time I felt like an adult.
Well, I guess those would be pretty lonely; I'd be mostly by myself (well, except for the virginity thing but I never even got that guy's last name.)
In any event, I plan to lose another 20 pounds by the reunion. It's July 9 (I think). I'm already supposed to meet up with my high school best friend, Amy. She has lots to be proud of - a great husband, beautiful kids, her dream job, and she runs now. Like a lot. She's always posting her times on Facebook. This was the girl who wanted to avoid sweating when I knew her in high school. If I had to compare myself to her, I'd have to admit that I haven't changed that much.
I guess that's what it really is. I don't feel like I've changed all that much. Maybe I need to go to find out if I have.
Go Wolverines!
