Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Can of worms

Whew! Busy. Getting ready for Xmas - I just barely got my Xmas shopping done. And Kati and I kept meaning to get together, but it's Dec 23 before we can finally make it happen. And then I'll drive home on Dec 24. Where I will stay for almost a whole week. I can't believe it. Can I tell you that I will enjoy every minute? Time is a luxury - I hope you appreciate that.

Yeah, that means I am no longer working at former place of employment. I didn't tell many people when my last day was. In fact, it wasn't supposed to be last Sunday, it was supposed to be tomorrow, but somehow wires were crossed and I got cut off. This means that I shall have to buy my brother-in-law's present at full price! Scandalous. I'm not sure I even know how to read the price tag without automatically taking the discount off. Seven years of internal math will do that to you. That whole thing is typical of why I got so tired of the place at the end.

It was a fine place. Some very good people. But there were idiots too - both fellow employees and customers. My sister would have me believe that every workplace has these problems, these idiots working there. But I like to hold on to the dream that somewhere out there is a place where only sensible, clever, and fun people work. A place where team work is second nature. Where people aren't afraid to do something that's outside of their job description.

Well, I love where I work now. Ummm ... I don't know if it's the dream. But we'll see.

Meanwhile, I cleaned out some of the former place of employment memorabilia. For example, I have a small purse that I used for the last 7 years specifically for my old job. It started out that I needed a bag 5" x 7" or smaller to carry things to work: lunch money, necessities, etc. We weren't allowed to take anything larger than 5 x7 into the store. So I had a small purse, given to me by a friend in Japan, measuring almost exactly 5 x 7 that I used. I kept money, fingernail clippers and nail file, feminine hygiene products (when necessary), contact info, and business cards in it. I never cleaned it out, except when I got new business cards. I would replace the old ones with the updated ones with a new address, number, etc. I also kept the business cards of other employees. Like MaryAnn, when she got her Customer Service award, she got new business cards that said "Customer Service All-Star." I kept one. Or Pam Henderson, who gave me a card, with her personal number on the back, just in case I'd need to call her to cover a shift or something. I also have a post-it that has my very first official job offer for a management position. A post-it! Can you believe it? Would you like to know how much I started out making?
$20,808 base salary + $10,192 in commission = $31,000 average yearly salary
not including overtime and bonuses, and the maximum per month for the bonus was $1734. My sales per hour expectation was $35.

That's what the post-it said. In case you're interested, I did make bonuses, and I ended up making quite a bit more than the post-it said. At first, I forgot the post-it was in there. But then I found it and I kept it, to remind me of how far I had come. Plus it represented good times, a good job, a good boss. I did very well when I first started. Well, ever since. As it turns out, for the six years that I was a manager, I only missed my bonus 5 times. I bonused every other month that we were able to sell. There is a caveat though. For the whole first year that I was in Boston, I didn't bonus, because I didn't have last year figures to compare to and the plan was impossibly high. Maybe that was the beginning of the end.

Yeah, I think you could rightly call that the beginning of the end.

I really liked being instantly rewarded for having done a good job, whether with money or with recognition. Somewhere in the end, it just stopped happening for some reason. I guess I felt like I wasn't ever getting rewarded. It was not a good time, not a good job, not a good boss.

Ok, I'll say it. She wasn't a good boss. She thinks she was. Other people think she was - think she IS. She's able to fudge her way through it because she's pushy. And pushy works on most people. But it doesn't work on everybody. Her inability to recognize that is why she wasn't so great.

Well, she's been gone a while, so that's over. Aw heck - it's all over. It's a little sad.
But it's over.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

GingAwesome

oh em gee, it's been so long since I've updated. And I was trying to be better about it.

Do you like my new blog pic? I Pop-Arted myself. I'm rather proud of it. I had taken photos of myself because I had gotten my make-up done by the MAC girls in a Mad Men fashion. I got my makeup done because I was supposed to go this theme party where people dress up pre-1960's. I was going to go when my closing shift ended at the store. I didn't go because I found out during the middle of my shift that I had to stay an hour later than I thought. The store extended its hours. If you're asking yourself why I'm still working there, you must be reading my mind. I just have to get through the craziness of the holidays and then I'll quit and live a normal life.

Whenever I think about that, I sigh. I get kind of a glazed look in my eye, and I look up and slightly to the right, you know, in that far-away way. "Normal ... it must be so grand!" I whisper. People must think I'm weird.

Other normal things that I've been doing:
I've been working.
I've been performing improv.
I bought a hat. (It's a great hat.)

I went home for Thanksgiving and it was awesome! I went shopping on Black Friday and it was awesome. We spent 30 minutes looking for a parking space and it was awesome! I spent an outrageous amount of money and it was awesome! I had leftover turkey with gravy and stuffing and it was awesome! The awesometude of the awesomeness was of such an awesomnity that you would have been blinded by sheer awesomation. I am not overstating this.

Why? you're thinking. Because I NEVER get to go shopping on Black Friday. I'm always rushing back to the store (no matter where I've lived) in order to open or close and work ridiculous hours, while my family plans Black Friday hunting and finds great deals, and later talks about how they love their new things, while wolfing down a turkey and cranberry sandwich made on a leftover roll, with a little bit of homemade noodles mushed in, because my family is weird and mixes carbs like that. I missed that EVERY year. This year, I ate that sandwich with GUSTO! And I don't even like cranberry.

It's my year, baby. I have decided. I never thought when this year started that it would have ended so well, but it did. It is the year of Ginger. And ... it is awesome.

P.S. Casey says that the movie should be finished by end of Jan. Exciting!

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Pecan Piiiiiiiiiiiiieee. Pecan Piiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiieeeeeeeee.

So working two jobs interferes with going to the gym regularly - that's what I found out. Boo. I am so tired when I get home from work or before going to work (whatever the case may be) that I just don't wanna go. I can't work up any enthusiasm whatsoever. When I only had the one (low-paying) job, it was easy to get enthusiastic about working out because I guess I just didn't have anything else to do that wouldn't cost any money.
Now I have lots of money and no time to spend it.
Well, not lots of money - I really should be paying off those bills.
I've been venturing into the world of stocks. Ever since I cashed some out to pay for this past summer, I've been playing around in it. I'll let you know how it turns out.
For now, I am planning a trip home for Thanksgiving. It should be fun. And they are serving both turkey and ham.
I did get a new phone - it's not much and it's not smart. I'm saving up to get a Samsung Galaxy Tab but I want to play with it a little more to make sure that I'll like it. No sense spending all that money on it, if I don't like using it.
The New Job is going great, but it's so different from old job. They did give me a laptop - a MAC! I'm relearning computers. "You must unlearn what you have learned," says Yoda. It's mine to take home and whatever. God, why do they have so much trust in me? Does every job do this?
Today, I have to go get a pie. It's from the baker in my improv troupe. It's pecan. Yum.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Don't step on my purple suede shoes.

New Job is great. We've had a little bit of a delay but we are making the best of it. It gives us more time to do things properly. However, it does leave me with a little free time at work. Which is not something that I'm used to.
See at Old Job, there was never a moment to rest. I always had a pile of stuff to do. And even when it was done, there was always next week's pile to get a head start on. And even when THAT was done, I could be on the floor selling. Which would then put me behind on the week's pile of stuff to do. Always moving, always something to do. Go, go, GO! Sometimes, something would be time-sensitive, for example, sales don't start until a certain day. But there's so much to be done for a sale, and you can't really do it in advance because the sale doesn't start til a certain day. My friend Maryann used to call it "Hurry up and wait!" I always thought that was hilarious. And it kinda feels like that now.
For now, I'm trying to enjoy what an office life is like. It's pretty cool. Even cooler? Holidays. That's right. Holidays, not having to work on 'em! What's up with that, world! It makes me giddy. Thursday is Veteran's Day and I freaking have OFF! I don't even know what to do with myself!
I just had this past weekend off. At Old Job, this past weekend was a big deal - first weekend of a major sale. I did NOT work! My manager gave me the whole freaking weekend off. Bless her little heart, which is Southern for "Crazy!" But I'm not the manager, and I like not being in charge there anymore. What kind of shenanigans did I get myself into? I went there and bought a pair of PURPLE SUEDE BOOTS! Somebody hold me back! So freaking awesome!

I used to love shopping. I have Billie to thank for that.

Anyway I am now using my time to do all those things that I've always wanted to do. Like buy mouthwash sew clothes clean room do laundry podcast! Some friends and I came up with an idea for a comedy sketch and I decided it would probably be best to do it as a podcast. Basically, a collection of us girls would watch a section of a bad action movie and critique it as we do so. I know it doesn't sound that funny, but when we came up with the idea, we were watching Road House, and it was freaking hilarious.
Another thing I want to do ... get back to writing sketch. A friend of mine has really inspired me. He's putting on a one man show that he's written himself. I am so envious and I can't wait to see it.
I also want to get back to dating. Well ... you know ... cuz.
FYI, improv is going well too. We got another girl in the troupe! Woopee! It was fun for a while being the only girl, but it's nice to have more people and it's nice to have someone to do girl jokes with. Not that girl jokes are that hard to get, but they somehow seem funnier to other girls. It's a mystery.

Weight gain. Boo. I gained four pounds. I think it may have been because I wasn't taking vitamins. I overate because I was ravenous all the time - could that have been a vitamin deficiency? And I was bored with the exercising. So I took a week off. I ate whatever I wanted. And then I hit the gym again and started watching my diet. It's been a little difficult eating properly because I'm buying lunch these days. But I'm trying to get back to packing lunch. Cheaper and better for me. And I switched up the workout by going to a dance workout class once a week. Fun but also humbling. My clubbing days are definitely over. I no longer have the funk. I haven't been on the scale since because I just want to get back into the groove of things. But 180 is the wall. I've always had trouble getting past 180.

Congratulations to Dave Winning for running the NYC marathon! WOW!

So that's all I've got for now.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

I'm all growed up now.

I got my first paycheck from New Job! Woohoo! I went and splurged! I went on a shopping spree! I was so excited!

What did I buy?




Mouthwash!

Yeah, that's right - mouthwash! I was so excited! I haven't had mouthwash since May! Not that I needed it. I had an appointment with my dentist just last week and they said that my teeth and gums looked great. It's just that I love mouthwash. I feel a little more confident with it. But when you're on a tight budget, it's one of those things that you take off your list of groceries to save a few bucks because, well, the dentist can tell you that your teeth and gums are great without it.

Of course that's not the only thing I splurged on! Don't be ridiculous, I bought other things too. I bought a new toothbrush! It was exhilirating - I'm not gonna lie. I also bought face cleanser - hadn't had that since, prolly August. Course, that was really more cause they stopped making my usual face cleanser and I was investigating which products would be best.

It's just that I was living on such a tight budget that I really did have to deny myself the simple luxuries, like mouthwash, a new toothbrush, face cleanser, and face lotion. For face lotion, I dug out all of the samples that I'd had from Old Job and started using those. Interesting tidbit: Estee Lauder makes me break out. Who knew. Fortunately, all my other toiletries lasted through my fiscal crisis.

I did run out of multi-vitamins. Didn't go buy new vitamins. I definitely need to get some of those, though. I'm a big believer of vitamins, ever since my 3 month jaunt around the world (with vitamins) prevented me from getting a cold for 2 years.* What did not run out? My Flax Seed Oil and my Gingko Biloba, NEITHER of which HELPED one iota the way that they were supposed to. Am I smarter? No. Did my blood pressure stop being too low? No. I wish these HAD run out so that I would have the pleasure of NOT buying them again. Hmmph!

I had cut back on the drycleaning also. I hadn't had a thing drycleaned since May, maybe April - I can't remember. I dropped all of it off this week = $99.50!!! That's actually not too bad considering it's 6 months worth of drycleaning. Although I really shouldn't tell you how many times I rewore some of those things.

AND I finally got my boots repaired. I took them to London with me and that's when I noticed that the bottom of the heel on the right shoe had fallen off! I still wore them. This is a no-no, as it wears down the heel more than the other one and then replacing the little rubber nub is not enough to even out the wear. I knew this having been in the shoe business. But what can you do when you're on a tight budget? Well, you wear your boots in London, that's what you do.

I just thought it was a monumental moment when I went to the grocery store and spent over $60. During the Ginger Russell Fiscal Crisis of Ought'10, my weekly budget at the grocery store was $30. Now I'm half-Korean and I knew I could make that work, so I wasn't worried. But that was meals for a week. No eating out. I maybe could sneak a coffee in or so. But no more eating out.

I wasn't always so good at sticking to the budget.


Thank God the crisis is over.

*I never told you about that? It's true.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

What do you call it when you think it's great, but it's not?

Other weight-loss problems? Sure.

My shoes don't fit anymore. I slide out of all of them. I used to have this beautiful pair of green suede shoes with a little velvet bow - I always got compliments when I wore them. Heels come right out, pants gets stuck in them, I almost trip. ARRRGH!

I'm digging out the shoes from the back of my closet (you know, the ones that used to be a little too tight, but I thought they'd stretch) and wearing those.

None of my winter pants fit, except for a grey wool pair that my sister bought me years ago, that never fit because they were about 2 sizes too small. Now they're about 1 size too small, but at least I can get in them. And when I say that my winter pants don't fit, I mean that they won't stay up. They fall straight down to the ground. Great, right? ARRRGH!

Bad news though - I've gained 2 lbs. If I want to lose more weight, I have to start dieting seriously. This sucks because I've always known that I'm not too good at it. I did well on Weight Watchers and that left me with some good habits that I'm trying to stick too. I did well this summer because finances forced me to pack lunch, which put me in a great position to eat better. But in the new job, I'm eating lunch every day at their cafeteria, where I tend to overeat. And because I'm working weekends also, I haven't even had time to go shopping for food. And so I give in to exhaustion and eat out -also very poorly.

If I can just get through the holidays without putting on more weight ...

The other thing that's bothering me is that the weather has been keeping me away from running along the river. I didn't realize that the gym wouldn't provide as good a workout. And I really HATE the treadmill. Seriously, I'm just angry at it now. I can't do any of the other machines because those feel like even less of a workout. I did go to one of the dance exercise classes last week, which felt good. Interval type training, worked up a good sweat, felt stupid - all the earmarks of a great workout. So I'd like to try incorporating that into my workout regime. Maybe I just need to invest in some warmer workout clothes and keep up the run along the river. Really? Why is this getting harder?

This was supposed to feel good. ARRRGH!

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

No longer bored at work

So it's about 8:30 pm, and I've had 3 days of New Job. And I'm tired. In fact, I didn't go to the gym today, even tho I should have, because I just thought that I might need some extra time in bed. You see, I didn't often open at Interim job, which usually meant that I was closing, which also meant that I didn't have to be there til 1 pm, which translated to I got to sleep in ...

... a lot.

Which was a perk.

But now that I have New Job, I try to be there at about 9 am. And I try to look like an adult. "Putting on my big girl pants," which is my family's new favorite phrase. Which translates to hair and makeup in gingerspeak. So I'm getting up a little extra early these days.*

Anyway, back to my point, I was contemplating that I was tired, and that it sucks that I don't get to sleep in, and then I realized something. Well, actually more like, I felt something. I let it roll around in my psyche a moment so that I could pinpoint what it was.

I realized ... that I can't wait to go back to work tomorrow. Is it ... dare I say ... passion?

Yes. Yes, it is! I've felt this before. Passion for a job, a career, a direction! I had it once before. It was when I first started out at my last job. For the first time in my life, I couldn't wait to get to work. And then when I was there, I loved it and wouldn't leave. I'll be honest, it wore off after about a year, but ... I remember it. It felt so good. And now I feel it again! That excitement, that anticipation, that planning in your head of what you're going to do when you get there tomorrow, that mental list of phone calls that you have to make, and then planning that mid-morning coffee that you're going to reward yourself with for having gotten it all done. It's there again! I can't believe it!

This is a strange concept to some, I know. Some people don't know this experience and find it a little hard to believe, like paranormal phenomenon. But I can assure you that it's possible. And, incredibly!, I am now experiencing this for the 2nd time in my life.

Can lightning strike twice? I don't know. But I have found what I was looking for. Maybe I oughta buy a lottery ticket. I'm one lucky girl. Sorry ... big girl.

*I can't wait to go shopping with my New Job paychecks, so I can buy big girl pants that fit and look good on the skinnier me.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Bored at work

Gina waits for the bus, not patiently, but resignedly, knowing that there is no way to make the bus come faster. Everyday, she leaves work with the urgent knowledge that the bus arrives at 5:12 pm, but upon arriving at the bus stop, she realizes that it's going to be late. This realization is born of experience - all those other times that she has waited for that bus. But for some odd reason, she never rids herself of that imposed expectation of being at the bus stop by 5:12 pm. She feels likes she is enslaved by the MBTA.



Her cell phone rings as she waits there. It takes a moment to dig it out of her handbag. It's just one of those needling rings, no ringtones. She could change it to one of those pre-programmed songs that uses high-pitched tones to impersonate music, but that always makes her feel like people will notice that she doesn't have a smartphone. And she hasn't really figured out how to get one of those real songs on her phone.



She doesn't recognize the phone number. So she doesn't answer. She throws it back in her bag. Then she looks around at the others who are waiting. Really? Does this old lady have to stand this close to me? You got a whole freaking sidewalk, lady. Am I standing in the absolute optimal spot for getting on the bus? And yet Gina does not move because of a vague feeling that she doesn't want the old lady to think that she's uncomfortable with her standing so close.



Her phone twiddles. Whoever that was left a voice message. The bus approaches.



The old lady elbows past and stands right on the curb - so much so that Gina is slightly afraid that she'll get hit by the bus. The bus does not slow or veer. It must be some random game of chicken that the old lady and the bus play regularly. Who wins?



Gina lines up to board the bus, while digging through her handbag again for the phone. Crap - pay the bus first. Where did I put that card? Oh, in my pocket. There it is. -$1.50.



She finds a seat near the back - that old lady better stay towards the front of the bus! - and plops down. Her feet hurt. They always hurt. She knows that she really shouldn't wear heels but flats make her legs look dumpy. Without a smartphone, Gina couldn't bear people gawking at her dumpy legs. If they were gawking, it would be comforting to pull out her smartphone and have a very busy and important text that she must study. Sorry, not text, email. When you have a smartphone, you don't text, you email. Just further proof of how unsophisticated her life is.



Oh, my cell. After locating the sneaky little thing, she opens it up. "Listen Now" or "Listen Later?" For a brief moment, Gina savored the mystery, the possibilities, hopefulness of what this call might be. And then terrible premonitions and paranoia flooded her mind - what if this were a hospital and my parents lay dying? Listen now.



"Hey girlie! Ok, so I'm finally gonna make it to see you! I bought my ticket and I fly into Logan on Tuesday. But I can only stay until Sunday and then I'm flying to London. I know, I wish it were longer, but I have a meeting there on Monday. And then I have to be back in Tokyo by the next weekend. Crazy busy! But at least I'll get to see you! Can't wait! Bye!"


Gina is stunned. She saves it. She scrolls through her "Missed" calls to see if she recognizes the number. Once she is looking at it, she realizes, "Of course, I don't know it. I don't know anyone who goes to London and Tokyo." This message is not for her. The thought hits her and then stings for a little while after.



The rest of the bus ride is quiet. Gina looks straight ahead and occasionally down to her phone, still in her hand. Usually she looks out the window on the bus ride home, hoping that she is not drawing attention to her dumpy legs, but today she looks straight ahead. The entrances to the bus are in her direct line of sight. So she sees every person who gets on and off today. The old lady gets off in Allston - in a hurry. Her eyes travel over the bus and the different kinds of people on it. They are none of them noticing her - not even her dumpy legs. It stings - a little like the message - that they don't notice her. But this bewilders her. She would have thought that she'd be ecstatic that she wasn't calling attention to herself.



What Gina doesn't know is that it stings because she is lonely and has only just realized it.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Don't hate me because I'm beautiful.

Other weight-loss problems? Sure.

My glasses don't fit anymore. They are too wide for my head and they slip off my ears. So I end up wearing them way forward on my nose. Luckily, I have another pair of glasses that I bought at the same time, which were a little tight at the time that I bought them. And they fit well now.

My opal ring doesn't fit on any finger any more. I tried my thumb but it slips off there very easily.

Gym clothes are very baggy too. Proof-positive that the gym is doing it's job but bad because the gym is the place where I am most active. Nothing makes my pants drop faster than running on a treadmill.

Well, Brad Womack (back for another try on the Bachelor!) could make me drop my pants pretty fast. If I had known that he was still available, I really would have moved to Austin, TX.

Meanwhile, I am still waiting to hear about a job that I interviewed for. If this doesn't come through, I am going to have to start investigating some alternatives to get through the holidays. Because the money just isn't enough right now. Sigh.

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Thursday, September 23, 2010

My next show is Oct 1 - I'm directing!

I really hate being broke. Sigh.

So I had a 2nd interview for a job. I'll be hearing about it by the end of next week. Keep your fingers crossed for me. In the process, I got a $25 parking ticket. Thank you, Boston. I missed it by 4 minutes. Argh.
Thankfully, I am still high from my vacation, so I'm coasting along on that for a while. We'll see how long it lasts. I would really like to put together a video of the trip. I have this Saturday off, so maybe I can finish it then. Unless the weather is nice, in which case I'll be outside, doing something. Maybe finding cannolis.
Plus, I still want to do a video of the gals' visit in May. Got it all waiting for me on my computer. Just have to get to it.
Meanwhile, I've been keeping busy with working out. Why? Because it doesn't cost money other than that monthly fee (which I might have to cut if I don't get a new job soon). And I want to lose weight (also a great way to save money). I'm hoping to get to 180 by Mesha's wedding. I've only got 3 more pounds to go and the wedding is Oct 9. Totally doable. At 183, fyi, total weight loss is 21 pounds.
London helped me get over the weight loss plateau (all that walking). I had been hovering at 185 for over a month. I did kick in to dieting a little so that helped. I intend to keep it up til the wedding. Now the question is what to wear? I have a cute dress, but it's peach and looks rather like spring. I have another dress that is super cute, but it's torn. I tried to patch it but I'm not sure how good a job I did AND I have to dry-clean it. Money I don't have.

I better find something soon.

Friday, September 17, 2010

Imagine that I'm saying this with an English accent.

London was absolutely charming, darling. I absolutely loved it. I can't wait to post my photos on Facebook, so that everyone can see what an absolutely smashing time that we had. Really. It was good times with a good friend. I mean, that's what it's all about, innit?

Highlights? Of course, darling. Here they are (in no particular order):

The London Eye
Tower of London - brilliant Yeoman Warder who gave us a proper tour
Festival on the Thames, featuring spectacular fireworks - absolutely brilliant way to end the summer, innit?
Parliament (of course)
Buckhingham Palace (of course)
Westminister Abbey (of course)
St. Paul's Cathedral - quick fact! It is not Catholic.
Seeing the Magna Carte at the British Library - completely unexpected and absolutely brill!
Seeing a show at a West End theat"RE" - made us feel like proper West End girls. (What did we see? "Love Never Dies," the sequel to "Phantom of the Opera" - quite nice)
The Rosetta Stone and Parthenon Friezes at the British Museum, along with an explanation of why they are NOT returning the friezes to Greece. Hmph!
Afternoon High Tea - clotted cream, I love you. Will you marry me?
Abbey Road - bit of a letdown, really
National Gallery - made all of those Art History courses finally worth it!
Running in St. James' Park - not nearly as lovely as running along the Thames.
Showerhead at our hotel - God, 5-star hotels are lovely.

Well, there's actually quite bit more, but we'll leave it at that. I had a lovely time visiting with an old friend (I don't mean the queen) and just getting away from it all. I came back to the equally lovely news of a 2nd interview for a job. Really quite nice, innit?

Take care, cheerio, and all that rot! Bob's your uncle.

Monday, September 6, 2010

I'm psychic and underemployed.

Oh my god! I seem to remember predicting this - the loss of the middle class. Huffington Post featured that article today, of all days, Labor Day.

Does anyone remember that I predicted that? Didn't I do that? Yes, I think I did.

Saturday, September 4, 2010

Newest Annoyance

I know, I haven't updated in a while. I prolly shouldn't say that because it might be a while til I update again. And then whatever argument I make for not updating for a while will just seem tawdry.

Newest annoyance? Yesterday, I wore a pair of capri pants that I purchased the last time I lost so much weight. Weight Watchers 2003. They're cute pants. Anyhoo, I had actually dug them out earlier this summer and been wearing them since. They were snug at first but they are fitting better and better everytime I wear them. And then yesterday, there was this thing.

See, when you lose weight and pants become too big for you, most of them are too big everywhere, so they just sag everywhere. You spend all day pulling them up or you wear a belt that bunches the pants up or ... whatever. You make do. But when you're wearing a pair of fitted pants that were probably a little too tight when you first started wearing them anyway, you have a different experience.

Yesterday, I put them on, I went to work, and right as I got to work, I thought, "Hey! I think my zipper's down." You know? How they just feel a little too "roomy" right around your belly paunch? So, since I was right at the entrance, and we have security cameras everywhere, I did that non-chalant hand brush across the front of my belly to see if my fly was open. It wasn't. Whew.

I started my shift, I took care of customers, I spent a good amount of time sitting. And then it was lunch. So I got up, got my purse and headed to the lunch room, and then I got that "roomy" feeling again. So I did another covert belly rub - I felt like the lucky Buddha. Nope, all good. Well, I had to check. When you're sitting, sometimes that happens - your belly gets a little paunchier, so your zipper could react! But no, I was safe.

Then I went to lunch. And dammit, as soon as I got up from sitting, I felt that "roominess" again! And I was sitting out at our cafe, right in front of everybody, so you know I was not going to rub my belly paunch in front of everybody. That's when it occurred to me why I was feeling it ... because my pants are roomy right there ... because I don't have so much of a belly paunch any more.

After I figured it out, it didn't bother me so much. It's just funny to me that I was so annoyed about it. Really funny.

Monday, August 23, 2010

This is a brief description of the script that I had been working on.

Neverender is the story of Ben Kensrue, a talented songwriter looking for a way to recapture his inspiration and drive. Beaten down by his life’s routines, he jumps at a friend’s suggestion to try a procedure that will allow him to work on his music and help with his growing depression. He meets the efficient Dr. Sid Lieb Gottney, who implants a small chip in his head that functions as a music player. He now faces his routines with gusto and verve. He renews his relationship with his girlfriend. He rebuilds his dream of writing music. Until a routine errand sets up a chain of events that has Ben questioning his music, his routines, and even his sanity.

Monday, August 16, 2010

Unexpected annoyances

I've lost weight. And there are ways that it definitely shows. I get a lot of compliments. Love compliments! Other things?
Well ... my underwear doesn't fit anymore. "Whatever do you mean, Ginger?" You KNOW what I mean. The butt of my underwear is all baggy and bunched up in my pants! It's uncomfortable.
Also, my opal ring doesn't fit anymore. Currently, I'm wearing it on my index finger but today I was washing my hands and it slipped right off. If I shake my hands vigorously, it'll come right off. AND I have to wear it on my right hand's index finger, cause it won't stay on the left. I guess your writing hand is always slightly more muscular and hence bigger than your non-writing hand.
I know it's great losing weight, but these 2 things are annoying!!! When your clothes don't fit anymore, you kinda celebrate and you go buy new clothes. But you always SAVE your old clothes, just in case you gain the weight back.
BUT nobody saves underwear! And I won't be able to wear the ring when I'm thinner. That's just plain sad. If I re-size it, it won't fit if I gain the weight back.
Like I said ... annoying.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

185 Cannolis

You know, I have time to write now, but I don't. For the past 2 days, I've remembered to bring a notebook to work, so that I can write during down time. But do I have any ideas? No. I don't. Sad.
Perhaps I am too excited about my upcoming trip to London. A free place to stay, so I am cashing in some airline points. The weather should be much nicer this time around. Last time I was in England, the worst storms in 20 years hit, knocking out many of the train lines. Fun. What did I do? I had clotted cream tea with my friend Alice. It was very proper and very delicious. I hope to repeat the experience.
In other news, that script I had been working on is finally being filmed. I can't believe it. That guy found a whole bunch of people (professionals, I believe) to do this film for free! It's a decent script and as I look back on it, I think it could really be cool. So we'll see. I am glad however that I am not a part of the filming process. It's just too tedious for me. I don't think I'd like to act in movies or on TV. I like being on stage, because it's continuous and the payback is immediate.
Speaking of which, I had a great show last Friday. My parents and my aunt and cousins saw it. My dad thought it was pretty good. I'm not so sure about my mom. I did do my Asian lady character, based somewhat (mostly) on her. It got the really big laugh of the night, so I gotta be proud. I'm not so sure that my aunt and cousins understood all of the jokes, but some things were just physically and visually funny, so I know they enjoyed some of it. The really big payoff for the night? My dad said the funniest thing that I'd EVER heard him say. "Your Mom does a really good Christopher Walken impersonation." If you know my mom ... omg.*

My aunt is really interested in what we call "185." These are jokes that always follow the format: "185 _____ walk into a bar. The bartender says, 'We don't serve _____.' The _____ say (punchline)." The audience supplies the _____. Example? Sure.
185 Koreans walk into a jazz and blues bar. The bartender says, "Hey, we don't serve Koreans." And the Koreans all say, "But we've got Seoul."
It actually took me over 20 minutes to come up with that. I'm better with animals.
So the reason that my aunt is interested in this is because I convinced her that it's great to teach English. Jokes, of course, are some of the hardest things to understand in a foreign language. 185 jokes tend to rely on puns, or play on words. This could introduce words that have more than one meaning, or homonyms, or metaphorical phrases, etc. It's a good way to make students get away from the literal meanings of their lessons. So now I have to send her some examples.
What else? Geez, isn't that enough? Well, just a quick update. The rest of the visit went very well. We ate so much. The job hunt is still on, although I slowed some because of their visit. The shingles is almost all gone. I still have some marks where the outbreak was. And I have been exercising regularly and I am still seeing some weight loss. Glad about the weight loss, stressed about the money. When, oh when, will my ship come in? Prolly when I get off my ass and look for it.
Maybe it's in London!


*She does not.

Friday, August 6, 2010

Today is Cannoli Day, so we are going to the North End.

What's happening?!? Well, my parents are visiting with my aunt and cousins from Korea. We are about to embark on a grand tour of Boston (not to include South Boston - they just wouldn't understand - us or them).
It should be a fun-filled weekend, starting with a show tonight! I hope my aunt and cousins get it.
Anyhoo, I'll keep you informed.

P.S. Lost 2 more pounds.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

My family's version of stress relief

Last week, I was talking to my sister about how stressed I was about not being able to find a new job yet. She was saying how stressed she is at her job. So I suggested that we open our own business, like a store.

Then she started telling me a story about someone at her job who did something wimpy. I can't remember who said what, but the conversation went basically like:

"Do you know where he can buy kahunas?"
"Kahunas?"
"Yeah, cause he needs to get a pair!"

A funny story, and it led me to suggest that we should open a store that sells shoes called "Kahunas." Kim said that the name of the store should be "Get A Pair." I told her that the design of the shoes should be like oxfords with tassels, only instead of tassels ... well, you get the idea. It would be very successful. Our target customer would be the business-type, you know, career-oriented, people who need power clothes and matching accessories. We would sell both men's and women's shoes. At the end of every transaction, we could say, "Now everyone will know that you got a pair," or "Hope you have fun with your Kahunas!"

That's us - just trying to make the world a better place, one pair at a time.

Friday, July 16, 2010

44 cents

Customer Service Tip of the Day: As it turns out, mail is a valid form of communication and you should check it regularly, because someone may be trying to tell you something. They may not call your cell or text you. Maybe they just choose not to do those things. So ... yeah ... you should check your mail periodically. It's not just for bills.

Meanwhile, the post office is so little used that they have to raise the prices again. You know, they really are a superior organization. Even with the price hike, they are able to transport a piece of paper hundreds of miles for mere pennies. Really, just pennies.
Yeah, email's free. But it's intangible. You can't feel it. You can't smell it. Yes, I said "smell it!" Try it. Write something on a piece of paper and then spritz it with perfume. Mail it.
I admit that I don't do it very often any more, but I love to write letters. I like practicing my handwriting. I like the way my handwriting looks. I also like doing calligraphy. For holiday cards, I sometimes do something fancy like that. I like the feel of cardstock in my hand too. I like watching movies that feature the late 1800s and people receiving letters, like in a Jane Austen story. Such strong paper, such flourish-y writing.
Did you know that in order to preserve paper, they would often write their lines and when they reached the end of the sheet, they would turn the paper a quarter turn and write over the previous lines so that it was perpendicular to them? It's actually surprisingly easy to read.
One of the things that I get to do now is write Thank You notes for customers. I always feel a little like Jane Austen when I'm doing it.

I wonder if people then ever ignored their mail.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Good for what ails you

Well, the aftermath of shingles continues to be as gross as having it. Little scabs are falling off. I know ... eeeewwww. Well! Imagine how I feel.

I have been continuing to run - I am doing the path along the river, which has been very pleasant and relaxing when the weather is not too humid. Even if it is humid, I walk it. People round here complain about the humidity, but I say they are wimps.

I have not been going to the gym because, as I said, I look hideous. And I felt it would be best not to subject other people my ex-personal trainer to the sight of it, lest they think that I will give them cooties even though I would happily give cooties to my ex-personal trainer.

I have been giving a lot of thought to my job search. It's been exhausting and no doubt largely responsible for the aforementioned cooties. Plus I was super-stressed out by not hearing back from the last interview. Incidentally, I did hear from them and they decided to go "in another direction." Is it tempting to write back and say they gave me shingles? YES.

Instead, I have been bursting with inspiration and creativity, prolly cause I'm back into the swing of improv. All my old story ideas have come back. Things like writing a musical based on Pat Benatar songs - I imagine a storyline about abuse victims and a flood and a daughter who hates her mom. It's good stuff. Or how about a campy, action-filled movie, filled with punchy one-liners and a great big giant sea monster. Or I could just write articles - I recently read an article written by a fellow improv troupe member on whether or not women are as funny as men. (Good news - yes, they are.) What kind of life would that be? Would I like it? Would I be able to eat? Would I get shingles again?

Enough of the existential debate - I had a cute thing happen yesterday that I really must share with you. I was leaving work for the day and I stopped at the little boulangerie that is right next to it. I selected a Coke to purchase. Yes, I did. I admit that I have occasionally had caffeine. Three times in the last month. BUT not yesterday. Why? Because the girl who works the boulangerie knows me and she knows that I always get ginger ale and she knows that I try to avoid caffeine. Just as I was setting the Coke on the counter, she started to say "Ginger ale for Ginger," and she stopped and gasped when she saw the Coke. Then she chastised me. She proceeded to give me quite a lecture about how I quit drinking caffeine and I always get ginger ale and why was I getting a Coke? So I put back the coke and I said thanks and I got the ginger ale. "That's better," she said. I was glad that she cared that much.

Monday, July 12, 2010

Annoyances

It's so painful. I have shingles. Oh god, it's so painful. I think it would be less painful if it wasn't in my hair, cause that makes it feel like prickly needles. Or on my ear, cause that just itches like crazy.
You don't know about shingles? Try Wikipedia. It's my new best friend. It actually ended up being the best resource. Those medical websites had way too many ads and read like they were afraid of telling me too much. Maybe cause doctors are tired of patients self-diagnosing from the internet. Boo hoo. Excuse me for being informed.
I did go to the doctor. And to be fair, MY doctor doesn't treat me like that. Other doctors in the practice have, but not her. She gave me an anti-viral medication and offered me narcotics for the pain. But I said no to the narcotics. They don't agree with me. They make me get all panicky and nauseous. She said ibuprofen would work just as well.
Meanwhile? I still went to work Sat night. I still performed in the show Friday night. I still went to a barbecue yesterday. I'm still going to practice tonight. My boss called though and told me not to come to work. She said that she'd rather I feel better for the upcoming sale than try to trooper through. Ok. That's fine. No really, additional words are not necessary; saying it one time was more than sufficient. I think I have tomorrow off too.
Anyhoo, the rash should be clearing up by the end of this week. God, I hope so. Not only is it painful, it's hideous. Don't look at me - I'm hideous. And don't TOUCH IT! It feels disgusting. Little hard, raised bumps. ugghhh, so gross.
I called my mom and told her and it took me a while to explain that I had SHINGLES, not SINGLES. She said that she was glad that I had explained it because she always wondered about that.

Finally, a word to corporate America: Yes, you do have to contact the applicants and let them know what's going on. Thank you.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Voulez vous?

Well, I haven't been doing my strength training at the gym like I should. I think the new routine is so time consuming that I get discouraged. In fact, a couple of times, I just did the old routine. But I have picked up running. For example, this morning I was up at 7 am and I went running! I'm aghast. I really am.
For the fourth, I've been invited to a wedding. A friend from the improv troupe is getting married tomorrow. It should be a beautiful day and I'll be feeling beautiful too. I had been looking all week for just the right hair accessory. When I didn't find a good one, I decided this was the universe telling me not to spend the money. But I have a dress that I bought months ago and never wore. I will look fantastic in it. I also have shoes that I bought years ago and never wore, and they are dying to come out. I'm excited.
It's nice to have things to look forward to. I really must plan more of those.
As a matter of fact, next weekend is booked solid. Another one of my improvmates is having a party Saturday night. It's going to be a French-style fin de siecle salon, you know, like artists in France during the turn of the century used to have. I wish I had a monocle that I could wear. I'd be so Toulouse-Lautrec.
THEN on Sunday, they are havnig the Kis-a-Que. It's a barbecue. A real live barbecue right here in New England. Whoda thunk it? For this though, I had to sacrifice practice on Monday night. But I think it's worth it.
Oh yeah, I also have trivia on Wed or Thurs this week. Hmmmm ... I'm popular.
Finally, I may be hearing about that job this week. I really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY want this job.
Can you tell? Wish me luck.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Today's Best Thing!

Guess who just lost 5 more pounds!

Today's funny thing

I wish I was a cartoonist.

Funny things, funny things, hmmm, funny things ...

Nope, got nothing.

I do like this web site though: http://imjustwalkin.com/

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Typo

Sorry - I'm not resigning my lease; I'm re-signing my lease.

Funny, cause that whole last post was about jobs and stuff. Hunh. Freudian much?

I was reading the blog of a friend and I realized that I don't really write funny stuff any more. I wonder if I am all out of funny. I think one of the main reasons for this is because I'm trying to get away from sarcastic writing. It doesn't always come across and when it doesn, it just seems so snarky. I don't want to be that kind of writer. There's so much of that out there on the internet - nit-picky snarkists who do nothing but slam everything with what they think is sarcastic humor. Sigh.

It's like when we were kids and we thought we were better than whatever we mocked.
Mocking = derision = derivative = beneath us. It's a simple, logical equation.

But no more! I don't like it. And I don't want to do it. So I therefore challenge myself. I will write funny stuff that is NOT derisive. How, you ask? Good question. Because so many people deserve it.

Friday, June 18, 2010

Stepping it up

Well, a month and a half into stepping down and I'm finding that I really have to tighten that ol' belt. It's really only a problem because I'm resigning my lease and I didn't budget for a new security deposit on the apt. Enh, I'll figure it out.
Meanwhile, the job hunt is going good. I had an interview today at a place where I really want to work but it'll be another couple of weeks before I find out anything. Sigh.
So there go any really exciting plans for the summer. I had planned on beach volleyball, but I guess I'll have to settle for sitting by the river here in Watertown.
Here's hoping the end of the summer puts me someplace brand new!

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Shut up, fool!

Well, the job hunt just kicked itself into high gear. Hello! How are you? Aren't you good-looking, you job prospect, you!
So I have been interviewing at one really lovely place, and they are on the verge of offering me a job, and then the day before they would do that, I had an interview at another lovely place. Well, that put me in a quandary. What to do? Oh, I have an answer - FREAK OUT! That's what you do.
THEN the day after all that goes down, I get two more requests for interviews. 2 more. See how I made that bigger to really emphasize it?
My head is about to explode. My immediate plans? Go see the A-Team with Kati tomorrow night. Why? Because I love it when a plan comes together.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Hot time, summer in the city

Well, things have been going ok. The job hunt has been slow, although I did have an interview last week. It's with a local travel agency that I've always noticed and sort of dreamed about. They do adventure trips for family, and these would qualify as luxury prices. They are looking for a customer service oriented person to make sure that all of the details of the trip are worked out and communicated to the customer. It's actually ideal, but ... not as much as I made as a manager. I could get by, but it would be nice to start a little bit higher.
It's an entry-level job and they were a little bit afraid that I was over-qualified for the job. I told them that I didn't mind that because I was new to the field and I needed to be at entry-level in order to learn. But I know what their true worry is - if it's not enough, how long before I leave.

In other news, I have been doing well at the workouts. My weight hasn't changed in the last couple of weeks, which is a little disheartening, but I haven't really been changing my diet since the gals visited. And I still haven't had my last session with my trainer.

Work is actually pretty good. The money sucks, but I guess that's the sacrifice that you make for less responsibility. Meanwhile, EVERYONE tells me that I look so much more relaxed and happier now. Now I know I made the right decision.

We have a show next week. I'm excited.

I have big plans for summer. I'm going to try to join a beach volleyball league. Shocking, I know.

When am I going to Switzerland? That is in the works. Richmond in October? Definitely.

So ... as you can see, I have lots to look forward to.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Stick my neck out

I only have one session left with my trainer. I am so sad. I wonder if I'd be able to start a regular friendship with this guy. Cause in addition to being so good-looking, he seems kinda cool. But maybe only cause he's always cheering me on and telling me how great I am ... at working out.
My last session was Wednesday. We updated the routine that I usually do for strenth training. It's 8 different sets, each set done for 2 minutes with as much intensity as I can give it. It's things like bicep curls and chest presses, and sit-ups/crunches. Those were killer. And then repeat these for a total of three times.
Then yesterday, my throat started to hurt. And I was worried because my friend Kati was sick with something and I didn't want to come down with what she had. I kept feeling my throat and it felt swollen and tender. Otherwise, I felt fine. But I was worried.
So last night, I went to the gym. I decided to do the whole strength training routine. I still felt fine. I did some cardio and I knocked out most of the sets. And then I realized when I did my first crunch why my throat was sore. I had worked so hard to do the crunches on Wednesday that I was sore from my abs all the way up to my neck. I just didn't feel it as much in my abs because I've been working them out.
Oh my god. I've never been sore in my NECK. I hope I don't end up like those weightlifters who have NO neck.
Now I just have to work up the nerve to flirt with my trainer.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Life's little annoyances

Good news - Mom is perfectly fine. They did a cath AND they went in thru the esophagus, taking pictures above and below the heart and they couldn't find any damage. She has a little bit of plaque build-up on the top of her heart, but not enough that it would have caused a blockage or clot. So ... they don't know what caused the heart attack. Great. That's actually not as comforting as you might think. They have some theories, but really there isn't anything more to do. Just go back to your every day lives.
I went down this past weekend and stayed for 5 days. It was nice. My mother was participating in a community yard sale and selling her flowers on Saturday, so I helped with that. The other days she just watered her garden. Trying to get her to rest is near impossible. In fact, I think she over-did it in an effort to show me that she's perfectly fine. We did have a minor blow-up where she got herself worked up because she wanted to get things loaded for the yard sale early. She thinks it's business as usual, but me and Dad were trying to make her understand that things are different now. No, she doesn't agree.
I enjoyed the visit. I had some blue crabs (although they were very small). I had some Carl's ice cream. Plus Mom and Dad made steaks. Yeah ... healthy eating. We don't know what that is in the Russell family.
You know, you think you miss certain things about home. Or maybe there are things you don't miss, but you remember them and you're grateful you don't have to endure them anymore. Like I miss blue crabs. I don't miss the humidity. I miss Carl's ice cream. I don't miss yardwork. But then there are the things that you forgot about.
Like mosquitoes. When you live in Virginia, they're just a part of life. They mean summer. You learn that the little ones are actually worse than the big ones. And then when you don't have to deal with mosquitoes anymore, you forget. You forget about how they feel when they touch down on your skin, that little twinge right before you realize you got bitten. And then when you go back and experience it, you think, "how did I live like this? It's INHUMANE."
Or Daddy Long Legs. Again, just a part of life. A needless, annoying, freaky-outy part of life. I was cleaning my Mom's house, and I thought I noticed a hair on my shirt. When I looked down to brush it off, it was a Daddy Long Legs. You'd think they were paying the mortgage in that house.
Here I am back in Watertown, back to my every day life. Which I really do need to concentrate on a little more.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

And the Oscar goes to ...

Hey! Here's the whole show. Let me know if you have problems watching it.

http://blip.tv/file/3600586

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Fighting Hunger, Not Our Age (although I want to)

What a week! Let's start with the good stuff.


The gals visited last weekend. We had a fabulous time! Of course, we did. It's what we do. We did a little sight-seeing. We had some clam chowda. We, sorry, I got a little drunk. I still suck at flirting. We also walked 14 miles. Don't believe me? Screw you. We did. It was so hot that day too. Also, there was no potable water. Boston was under a boil water order. As it turns out, the water was safe to drink all along, but the governor didn't want to take chances. It gave a lot of people the excuse to have parties and drink alcohol because there wasn't anything else to drink. The girls finished off their visit by coming to see me practice improv, which I loved and later prompted about 3 of them to ask if Jen was single and all of them to ask exactly what a competitive analyst does.







P.S. I lost a whole pound from all that walking.


P.P.S. I got your note, Leanne.


They were also here when I went to the temp agency to interview. It was just a preliminary interview to see what I was looking for and what I might be a good fit for. I'm optimistic about it and I really liked that the agency was honest with me. So here's hoping that goes well. I am still looking on my own and I might even try another agency. That is what they recommended.


As it turns out, they made me switch departments at work. The new department is ok. The best part of about it is the complete lack of responsibility that I have. I love it! It's literally not my problem any more. Awesome! Of course, I don't plan to stay there; I am looking for something outside of retail, but in the meanwhile, it's ok. Here's hoping I find something good soon.

On Friday night, we had a show. It was the final show for one of our players (quite possibly the best). He's awesome and we will surely miss him. We'll plagiarize his characters often, of course. But he's going on to things that he's excited about and that's always a good thing.

But that's when I got the bad news. My sister and dad had actually left messages for me right as the show started (which I checked) but since they didn't say what it was, I thought it was best to wait until after the show to call back. It's not good to have distractions. I'm glad I did, but I feel guilty about it now.

My mom had a heart attack. She's fine. It was mild and they got to the hospital in plenty of time. For what it was, she's going to be ok. They are doing a cath on Monday to check her heart. She's in the hospital right now so they can watch her. With her history of high blood pressure, and she's had a heart murmur her whole life, that was probably the best thing to do. The hard part will be getting her to take it easy when she gets home. According to my dad, she was most upset about missing out on Mother's Day for her flower business. She made my dad promise that he would sell while she was in the hospital.

I'm going down on Wednesday. I'll stay for a few days to make sure that she doesn't over do it. It sucks getting older. Not just because of all the things it does to you (could we have walked all 20 miles?) but because everything around you gets older too and sometimes we're not so prepared for that. It's a shocking realization that your parents aren't permanent. Another milestone for all the B-day Gals.

So what did I do after the show? I went out for Chinese with the rest of them. After all, we should live every day as if it were our last.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Phantom Job Pains

Well, the really big news is that I'm stepping down as a manager at my current source of income. This is effective May 1 ... the day before I walk 20 miles. Not that those things are correlated.
It was a tough decision and it felt a lot like breaking up with an old boyfriend. You just knew it wasn't working out, but you hung on, thinking that it'll get better, but really only cause it was comfortable. Well, I had to admit to myself that I was unhappy and staying wasn't fixing that.
I know what you're thinking. You're thinking, "Ginger, it's going to be ok. If this is what makes you happy, then it's what you should do. You will find something else that makes you even happier."
You're thinking, "Life's too short. We should live each day as if it is our last."
I tried that, but people got tired of me screaming, "I'M GOING TO DIE!!! I'M GOING TO DIE!!! I'M GOING TO DIE!!!"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
Oh, that was good. That was a birthday card someone gave me.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Phantom tooth pains

So ... did I tell you about having a screw put in my jaw? No? Really? Well, compared to having both of one's jaws re-alligned, ain't no big thang. But ... I did have a screw put in my jaw.
That's right. For the implant. Last December, I went to my orthodontist - no, no, no. Let me go back further.
Last October, I went to an orthodontist and she took my last molar on my bottom right side out. It was tough. She said that it wasn't the hardest (like my Japanese dentist had said it was) extraction that she'd ever had to do but she would definitely put it in the top ten. I mean, she's got her foot up on the chair, and her assistant has me in a headlock and she is PULLING this tooth out. I guess my bone is so dense that it's difficult to extract my teeth. As if this wasn't hard enough, the fire alarm in the building went off right in the middle of her pulling it out. She wiped the sweat from her brow and said that we weren't leaving in the middle of this.
So it came out, I lived with a gaping hole for a couple of months and in December, I went back. This is when she screwed a metal rod into my jaw. She numbed it up good; drilled a hole into my jaw to start off; and then put a little metal pin on the end of a drill and slowly but surely drove it in. She told me the diameter at the time but hell if I remember it.
Anyhoo, I'm sitting there with my ipod on while she's doing this and I'm fine. I have a pretty good pain tolerance and dental work has never really bothered me, so I'm fine. Then I notice that she's got a bit of a furrowed brow. And her drill is making this whining noise, as if it's trying to turn but can't. I'm thinking, wow, I must REALLY have dense bone. So I shut off my ipod and she explains that she can't back the metal pin out. The drill won't reverse. She doesn't think it's a problem but she wanted to be sure that she could back it out, in case she needed to reallign the bolt in my jaw. Plus, it's gone in just a little too far. So their only alternative now is to back it out by hand. Ok, well, whatever, do your job, I think.
The orthodontist puts the drill away and picks up a small L-shaped tool, only 2-3 inches long. The assistant puts me in a headlock. The orthodontist puts the tool in my mouth. And she RATCHETS the metal pin back out.
RATCHETS!!!
That I could not take. My head is shaking back and forth from the ratcheting. Her hand is moving back and forth in my mouth. It's making that ratcheting NOISE. It was like nails on a chalkboard.
I got through it. I mouth breathed through the whole thing. I clenched the side of the chair. I didn't think that would be the thing to get me, but it was.
Once the pin was in, they had to let the gum heal around it. Then 4 months later, they use an impression of my original tooth to make my new tooth, which they'll screw to the top of the metal pin. My regular (dreamy) dentist does this.
Today I went in for some preliminaries. Right now, I have a temporary tooth made from PVC pipe (his words). It's molded in the shape of my original tooth, but they had to grind it down to fit my mouth. Apparently, not having a tooth in that space for so long, my tongue and cheek have gotten used to it. Now it feels like my tongue and cheek are swollen because they're butting up against it. The dentist told me that I'd get used to it.
The hardest thing to get used to is chewing on BOTH sides of my mouth again. All day long, I kept catching myself chewing on my left side. Then when I made myself chew equally, it just felt weird.
Well, in a couple of weeks, they'll check it again, and in a month, my permanent tooth will be in. And then I'll have to think of new reasons to go see my handsome dentist.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

The last time I walked this much, I was in China.

I am walking 20 miles because my friend Jen thinks it's fun. No, seriously, this is her idea of a vacation.

I know what you're thinking. How did you, Ginger, end up with a friend like this? That's not like you. How come you're not at a support group for Peeps Overeaters Anonymous? Aren't those the kind of people that you would call life-long soulmates?

Aside from the fact that such a group does NOT exist*, I have to say that you never know where the life-long soulmates will come from. So it does not do to judge people like that. Instead open your heart to all kinds of people, and you too might just meet the kind of friend who challenges you to make the world a better place. I hope I can be that kind of friend to you.

Which is why I'm asking you to contribute. Here is my page, where you can make a contribution to end hunger. And I'll suffer those 20 miles not just for Jen, but for you too.

Thanks.

*I know, I checked.

Friday, April 2, 2010

Another one bites the dust

So Tuesday, I come home and I go to use my computer and the screen is all white. The mouse doesn't do anything. Turning it on and off doesn't do anything. Turning the computer on and off doesn't do anything. So Wednesday, I unplug and replug various wires. I blow on various parts (it's very dusty in my house). I bang on various spots. I even shook it really hard. No effect on it whatsoever.
So I'm sitting there and I think, "Well, your monitor is at least 4 years old. Probably older. It's probably just burnt out. Time to get a new monitor." Yeah, I hated the thought of spending money on it though. So I figured, "Well, just get on craigslist and see if you can get a used one cheap." Then it occurred to me. "Ginger, how are you gonna get on craigslist when your computer monitor doesn't work? You idiot."
They got me. I went to Best Buy (which I HATE*) and bought a new one. I just picked the cheapeast one.

In other news, I lost another pound. Woohoo!

*Don't ask me why I hate it. I can't even believe I went there. I should have gone to Target across the street. But let me just say that they did not fail to continue to offer their ridiculous "insurance," which I fully believe is a condoned scam. Bitter much? Yes ... yes, I am.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

March Madness

So I'm still looking for a new job. I've found some good leads, but who knows what my chances are. They all want you to apply online but I hate doing that because I feel like I get lost in the electronic shuffle. On the other hand, mailing in a resume is so old school and sometimes NOT even an option. What I really need are personal connections. Hmmm ...
I also need to think about what other fields I can apply in. I've tried shoe companies and I've tried museums/art galleries. So what else can I do? Any suggestions?
I really want an MBA and to try consulting in management. But then I actually have to go to school and get that MBA. Sucks. My sister suggested Project Management certification. Actually, my roommate did too. It's mostly used in technical, computer-y fields but it's considered one of the "hottest" certifications to get. And my sister says that the one they hired doesn't know anything technical at all. She's basically just a glorified, well-paid AV club. Still ...
So if you have any suggestions of jobs that I should apply for, I would be happy to hear them.

Meanwhile, we got a new store manager finally. She's probably going to start next week. It's kinda exciting.

In other news, I have a show this Friday. I'm still training at the gym and doing well. Total weight loss, 11 pounds, and they feel permanent. And I'm just wrapping up the script that I was supposed to be writing for Casey. I should be putting the final touches on it today. Busy day today - we'll see how it goes.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Lists. You know I'm fond of lists.

So things that I just need to change in my life:

1. my job.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

genki nai

I feel ooogy. Someone help me.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Genki, ne!

I really need to change the picture. I'm not sure I like it anymore.

I'm still recovering from my sinus infection; I just have a sore throat now. It's lingered for a while. I was supposed to have a regular doctor visit in March but I put off scheduling it until I had my schedule and now the soonest thing that they have is April. Boo. I may call and ask if I should be concerned that the sore throat is still lingering. I think it's really just post-nasal drip.

Now that I've disgusted you enough with my health problems, let me tell you about the awesome party that I had. Yes, that's right! You heard right! Ginger finally had an awesome party.

After years of horrible luck with parties, I reneged on my previous vow NEVER to have another party and decided to have a Japanese theme party. This was an idea that I BLATANTLY stole from Kalpana and her husband. They posted pictures of a Japanese party that they had to which someone came as GODZILLA. Well, I wanted THAT! So I decided to try it.

Whadya know? People came. It was amazing. We had me, dressed in my taiko drumming outfit, Kati as Kungfu Panda (yes, I know it's Chinese, but she was too attracted to the prospect of being both awesome and attractive), Jason in his Thai outfit, John in a Chinese shirt (I think it was hemp), Cynthia as a Sushi Roll (very awesome!), Jillian as a Pokemon warrior, and Jessica in a full kimono with wig (wicked awesome!). Kristen, my new roommate, was there too, as an American tourist (yeah, she just wore normal clothes). Oh no, wait, Patrick, from my improv troupe, also came in normal clothes, but he claims he ate a Japanese man on the way over, so I guess it was some kind of Godzilla impersonation. I'm not gonna question it. The important thing is ... PEOPLE CAME! Amazing. Really it is.

I made teriyaki, tempura, and sushi rolls. I almost went over board. Sure I have lots of raw vegetables in the fridge now, but at least I didn't have to throw it away (just yet). We also had edamame (soy beans), wasabi peas (yuck), and Pocky sticks. Very Japanese.

For fun, I borrowed my mom's karoake machine. Believe it or not, this is super extremely fun and not just cause I love it. It's the kind of thing that people can really get into. And if you sing some of the songs in a Japanese or German accent, it's hilarious. Of course, not everyone is confident enough to do this, but those are the people who love Apples to Apples.

After hearing people rave fanatically about this game, I thought it might be just the thing. Well, people stayed til after midnight on a Sunday night playing this game. Good times. I drank half a (BIG) bottle of sake. Thank God, I live here. I was a little bit hung over the next day.

If you'd like, there are pictures on facebook. Enjoy. And if you're thinking of having a party, think Japanese.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Happy Birthday to me!

Well, it's been a lovely vacation and it's shame that it's over so soon. I got to see Jen, Leanne, and Mesha. I decided to keep the friends' visits to a minimum, since I didn't have as much time this year. So I really should make an effort to phone anyone that I didn't get to see. Otherwise, I was so glad to catch up with everyone.
It was a little exhausting hanging out with my family. I guess there's a lot of personal stuff happening that just makes everyone stressed out. That's one nice thing about being so far away is that it's not a part of my day-to-day life but then when I'm visiting, I'm kinda inundated with it because they know that I'm out of the loop. What they don't know is that I like being out of the loop. On the other hand, I went to the gym twice with Kim. That was good because I got to keep up my workouts and I got to encourage Kim with it.
Today we did a birthday celebration that included a lot of food (per usual). Now I'm just trying to recover from the sheer volume of food. Prolly negates those workouts now. Oh well.

Friday, February 12, 2010

Even a caveman can do it.

I didn't get any snow, but I did use it as the perfect excuse not to go to the gym. Well, not really. I did have this nasty sinus infection.

It started out as just a flu that both my roommate and I picked up at Karoake. (new plan - require drug tests before you are allowed to karaoke with us!) Mine was made worse by a personal training session that led to me getting dehydrated and unable to get a Gatorade to make it go away. So I spent the night at work (as the manager in charge) feverish and slightly goofy. Example? Sure. "Ginger, I have a customer here who would like to return a shirt." "Sure, just add a little sauce."

So I was out of work for a couple of days, thinking it was just a virus and would go away, but it did not. This led me to go to the doctor's (finally) and she said it was a sinus infection and prescribed antibiotics, which started curing me promptly. Feeling better now, except I'm all husky-voiced, which can be good up until you start hacking up phlegm.

Meanwhile, loved ones are experiencing record amounts of snow. I texted my brother Nathan and the exchange went something like this.

Me: Hows the snow?
Nathan: If I were (to) play it low key I could only say there is enough snow here to cause the extinction of man ... that doesnt even make sense?
Me: But ur not xtinct yet?
Nathan: Actually I had problems writing the txt since I just thawed out of a block of ice, and this technology scares me.

He's so funny.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

How to occupy a whole weekend by doing nothing

Still doing very well with my workouts. I took a couple of days off, although I hadn't meant to. I came home from work one evening, fully intending to go to the gym and, do you know, I fell asleep on the couch. I had no idea that I was so tired. I think that's actually a side effect of working out.
Anyhoo, I went back to the gym last night to do my strength training. I went today to do my cardio. I'll go back tomorrow to do my strenth training again. And then back on Tuesday to do my cardio. And then Wednesday is my next training session with Rich, my hot-ex-marine personal trainer. It's gonna be a fun-filled week. I can't wait.
Meanwhile, I have this weekend off. I don't know what I'll do with myself. As it is, I wasted all of today. I could have gotten some cleaning done, although I really should have worked on the script that I promised Casey.
It's almost done, it just needs some tweaking. While I like our idea, I'm getting a little annoyed now, because I feel like he's adding ideas to the mix a little late. It's almost like over-seasoning the soup. We just need to let it simmer. I guess it really comes down to a difference in our creative styles. I get all my ideas in the beginning and I try to cram them all in. Towards the end, I start editing down. But Casey seems to be the opposite. He started out saying he wanted it simple and as we've gotten more in-depth, he's adding more and more and more. It's a little exhausting. But we gave ourselves a deadline and I think it'll be much less after that.
I guess the other thing I could have done was study for the GMATs but I think I'm so much more occupied with the working-out. Enh. Last week, I lost a pivotal pound. Just one pound, but it was the difference between 200 pounds and 199 pounds. Woohoo!
Meanwhile, I'm gearing up to go home in February. I'll be in Virginia Feb 16 thru 21. Let me know if you're interested in getting together.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Gymawesome!

I'm awesome! Why? Cause I keep going to the gym, that's why! I deserve a freaking Olympic gold medal for going to the gym a requisite number of times! Woohoo! I rule!

Friday, January 22, 2010

Keep it up!

So I had my third session with my personal trainer this week. We're going to be meeting every other week, for a total of 8 sessions. That's what I've signed up. He and I agree this is a good amount of time to see some real progress. So in each session, he'll be giving me a strength training routine and a cardio routine that I'll follow until the next session. It's pretty effective. I did my first strength training on my own today. It was surprisingly easier than when I did it with him, which made me worry that I wasn't doing it right, but I know that I did my darndest to do it right. The cardio is actually the hardest part because I have to go often enough to do it and then when I'm there, do it for long enough.
I'm really liking this. I'm glad that I've signed up for it. And my mother can stick it as far as "taking time to find a husband" is concerned. I like my personal trainer too. He's motivational and keeps my focused, but also can distract me from how difficult it can be. Well, when he's not being motivational. The last time that I was there, he used the whole time that I was on the treadmill to talk about how great I was doing, and "keep it up," and "you can do it!" and all that pep talk sort of stuff, and ... (I never thought I'd say this) I gotta kinda sick of it. I really wanted to say, "Can we not talk about me and how great I'm doing?" Because all it does is focus on how much longer I have to go on the treadmill. So I'm going to say something at the next session.
The other good thing that I'm hoping for is pick-up volleyball games. When I joined, they said that the gym was trying to get that started. I hope they do because that would be wicked awesome.
Meanwhile, what are my plans for Valentine's Day? none.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Time or Space?

Argh! I'm so frustrated. I just got off the phone with my mother and she actually tried to convince me that I was wasting my time with "that comedy stuff." Instead, according to her, I should be spending my time looking for a husband. I'm not kidding; my mother actually thinks this. As to her suggestions for appropriate ways to look for a husband, she never has any. It appears that she just knows what is a "waste of time."

Luckily, I've inherited this ability from mother and I too know what's a waste of time.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Hey, did you hear about the murder in Watertown?

Yeah, my muscles are killing me!

Yesterday was my first session with the personal trainer. Not bad, totally doable, only thirty minutes. Today was my 2nd and 3rd (we combined the 2 half-hour sessions).

oh.

my.

god.

He killed me. He very nearly killed me. He made me feel like I might die. He made me very, very tired, so much so that it was like a state of death. He made me so sore that I can't move, so that's kinda like being dead. I let him do those things to me.

And then I paid MORE money for him to do it to me again.

God, I better look good in 4 months.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

The elephant in the room? Oh no, that's just my down comforter.

Been to the gym three times!! Woohoo!! Of course, I'm currently eating chocolate, but that will pass. I can't wait til Tuesday when I have my first personal training session.

Also, I went to a fantastic Korean store today. It's Shangri-la. Really, what did I used to do before this store came along?

I did have an improv show this past Friday. It went pretty well. One of the two best shows that I've done here (If you're keeping count, I've done two shows). There were less players than usual. So it was a little more pressure, but nothing that we couldn't handle. I really do like my new improv troupe. I so look forward to practices and shows. I feel like I'm doing something more with my life now. It's exciting. Especially now with the gym thing.

Plus, I'm still volunteering on Tuesdays. I'm glad that I'm doing it but I miss the vibe at the old place a little. At the new place, I feel like the volunteers don't really bring the kids out of their shell as much as we could.

Work is work. I'm still working on new opportunities. Although I did have a small change that might make things a little better. I look outside myself these days to find out what it is that I can do. Perhaps I should have made it a resolution.

The thing that's giving me the most pressure right now is a script that I'm trying to write for a director. It's his idea and it's a good one. I want to make sure that I have it done by our deadline so I'm trying to give it as much attention as I can right now. Some days I'm just drawing a blank, and some days I'm just not doing what he wants, so it's kind of a two steps forward, one step back feeling to it. But we already have some good scenes written and he's recruited a lot of help for it. It could really be something. I'm excited for it too.

The other really big thing that's giving me anxiety has been weighing on me for some time. Ever since it turned cold. I've been meaning and meaning to get to it, but it's such a big project. It's just so heavy and I'm not looking forward to it. I kinda feel like if I had some support from my mother or my sisters, this would be a lot easier to tackle. But I'm a big girl now, and I have to learn to take care of these things myself. So ... I have to sew the cover on the feather comforter myself.

It's just so heavy. It weighs roughly the same amount as a baby elephant.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

The Thin One

Ah, Jen, to paraphrase Forrest Gump, "You'd be so proud'a her ... and she's so smart."

I signed up for a gym. It's the Boston Sports Club. It's a good facility with classes, a pool, lots of machines, and a sauna. It's just down the road. It's reasonably priced and running a no-initiation-fee promo. And THEN God rewarded me for joining a gym by having the club offer a promo of three sessions with a personal trainer (a cute one!) for only $20. So I took advantage of that. My first session is next Tuesday. I'm excited. I stayed to work out a little.

I already feel thinner.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Plan A vs. Plan B?

Ok, so would you like an update on the form vs. function debate? Here is what I've discovered now that I've thoroughly researched the situation.

Gym memberships can range between $50-$80/month. Good gyms, reasonable prices. One drawback is yearly contracts, but there are options for month to month. There's a YMCA near work that might be a good, or a Boston Sports club near home that would be good. So lots of options.

GMAT prep courses? Take a wild and crazy guess at the price. Go ahead. Guess! Now check it out. http://testprep.princetonreview.com/CourseSearch/Search.aspx?productType=C&rid=1&Zip=02472&itemCode=16

So the plan* is:
1) join a gym
2) slim down and look great
3) meet a guy who makes a decent living
4) fall in love and marry him
5) have kids with him
6) give up my first born to pay for the GMAT prep course.

Cause that's the only way that's happening.

*the alternative plan is:
1) go to a gym

2) work on arms and legs
3) give one of each to pay for the course.
This plan is not attractive, since it could severely cut my chances at meeting a guy.